“life will be better in spring”

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smth happen
make me think of my ah gong all of the sudden
some how when some1 pass away
and knowing how sad the alive ppl feel
i started to feel the sadness
cause i uds hw they feel,hw sad to have some1 close to u just pass away
i feel the same thing juz 2 years ago
i lost my dearest ah gong in the middle of my sec sch

before he pass away
he was going in and out of hospital bcos of his illness
one day when he was about to go home, he fainted
then things get serious he went into icu
i rmb when i went in to see him wif my brother
i saw him full of pipes poking into his hands and stomach
and he seems so skinny and weak
it pains me):

i was nev a gd grandchildren
when i was young i went to his house every sat
but when i get older i started to stay away
becos ther nth to do ther and i nt close wif my cousin
so i hated going ther in fact
i regret nt spending alot of time wif him
i nev talk much wif him cause i don uds hokkien
and he can't speak much Mandarin too

i also rmb when i was young,
he will hold my small hands wif his winkled hand
and the brush in his hands
and write my name wif it
and every sat i went ther
i will sit in his bedroom wif him
to watch zhen qing wif him

he dote on me the most bcos i'm the youngest of all cousins
but i really regret nt spending alot of time wif him
if i could i willing to give him a little time of my life
let him live longer and let me treasure him by my side
let him koe how much i love him

regrets filled my hearts
so whenever i think of him
my tears started to flow
i break down at class tdy
but i cover my face wif my hands
i take mrt to woodlands
then bused home from ther
during the ride home i almost cried
but i control my tears

i want him to see me getting into adult age
i want him to see me getting a job
i want him to meet my boyfriend
i want him to see me wearing the braid grown
i want him to be at ther at my wedding ceremony
i want him to hold my child
but its all gone nw
he pass away without seeing all this happening
i miss him so so so much

god never gave me a good and responsible father
but he gave me a really good ah gong
and i thank him for that
cause being his gran daughter was my greatest blessing from god

left is mine hand, right is lin hand

tdy had FIA practical
did stuff a while then slack around
then me and lin started playing slapping each other's hands game
then she slap dann hard lah
then my hand gone all red):
then we keep running in and out
ask kaya to go in and out also(:
then saw mr alan tan
so happy:D
long time since i saw him le
still very funny like last time(:

went to meet insurance ppl tdy at doubly ghaut
i can either pause the policy or stop it
he ask me to think about it
wanted to talk to piggy de on phone
but he sounds so tired so i guess i consider it myself ba
don wan bother him(:

DPA did nth much tdy
so slack at class
aircon at 4707 was bad):
so so hot):
eyer don bother to fix it also):
student care did nth again
went for 1hour plus break again(:

lin was refilling her water bottle at block 1 level 5
then we heard alot of ppl cheering and everything
then i ask lin to run faster go down see
a group of sudents was dancing hip hop
one of the song is ''its my life'' dann how i love tis song
after they finish, we went to classroom put our bag down
then we went see again nice nice(:
lin saw yellow shiny boots so nice
but it 100plus one pair):
so expensive,but shiny and cool(:

then went back classroom
watch bend it like beckham instead of MNE2
did abit of assignment then release
accompany lin go LRT station went back sch to wait for piggy
sit at event plaza, i was bored so i started reading books
but after a while my head starts to feel giddy
maybe its the weather):
then piggy so worry say i fever and everything
then send me home despite his class
i'm so lucky to have such a caring piggy although he naggy sometimes:p

在一个很美的下午天，
女孩遇见了男孩
经过很多次的出门，
女孩渐渐的对男孩有了感觉
男孩也有同样的感觉
然后他们就成为了情侣。

他们度过了很多美好的时光，
从没吵架过
只有一些小争执，不到一天就合好了。
之到有一天，因为男孩的不小心，
不小心伤害了女孩。
女孩开始对男孩有了疑问，
女孩把心里的疑问告诉了男孩，
但万万没想到
她无意中也伤害了男孩。

女孩觉的很对不起男孩
于是向男孩道歉
但因为男孩的末种原因
对女孩說出了一些话
让女孩觉得一切的一切都是自己的错
生气的女孩回复了是自己的错
还有很多不开心的话
男孩擦决女孩生气了
于是马上打电话给女孩
但是生气又受伤害的女孩
一一的拒绝了男孩的电话
男孩发了很多短讯给女孩
最后女孩终于接起男孩的电话

在另一端的男孩向女孩解释
女孩一边听着男孩的解释，一边听着心碎的歌曲，一边掉眼泪
女孩一句话都没跟男孩說
疲累的女孩挂掉了男孩的电话
告诉男孩自己累了
想去睡了，叫男孩要早睡也是

隔天早上，
女孩发现自己忽然好想好想男孩
好想马上见到他。
他们說好要见面，
但女孩坐在約定的地方时，
等待着男孩的到来时，
脑海里是想着但男孩走来时，第一件事就是扑上前去紧抱着男孩。

但是当男孩走到女孩面前时，
女孩却没抱紧他
反而看见男孩时掉头就走
不想看着男孩的女孩
一值往别的方向望去
男孩无奈的跟着女孩的背后。
男孩看见女孩满头大汗
拿出纸巾想帮女孩擦去
但女孩却把男孩的手推开
男孩无捺的把纸巾递给女孩
女孩却拒绝了。
看着男孩那么的无奈
女孩心里也不好受。

男孩紧紧的抱住女孩
向她解释
女孩却一值把男孩的手推开
但过了不久后
女孩再也无法忍受自己对男孩的想念了
也把手放在男孩的腰上面
紧紧的抱住男孩
男孩感觉到女孩的手在自己的腰上
便把女孩紧紧的抱住
告诉女孩說‘我们不要再着样了好吗？’
女孩微微点了点头
于是他们又合好了。

女孩过后想了想
为什么男孩伤害了自己，自己却还肯愿谅他
明明很气很气他的，却忽然之间又那么想他？
女孩想了想
终于明白了
因为女孩深爱着男孩
所以不管有多生气，多伤心
在女孩的最深处
还是有爱存在着的。

the end(:



saturday
cold weather tdy cause keep raining):
then the whole resturant very dark
rain almost whole day
but still got customer
but nt very busy(:
bus home was terrible cause bus ac very very very cold):
was freezing when reach stop):
sunday
something bad happen
cried till my eyes hurts
everytime i saw the sms u send i started crying
or everytime i think of those things my tears start to drop
keep rubbing my tears off so eyes hurts like hell
when the day is still nt half
take phone to toliet saw all the message u send
make me cry at the toliet all over again
alot ppl around so never think so much
but its a terrible day

it was scary kay):
we were at the outside , piggy doing his things then we was not focus
the ''ghost'' juz keep and scare us
then kana stunned we walk away
scary sia):
went in the ghost mansion
it was all Chinese ghost wif funeral and everything
then when we were walking out to night safari
saw one long hair ghost
piggy ask me take pic for him
then i scare then shake then the image blur
then he ask me take wif him
then he put his hands around me
thn scream at me sia
then i scream too then run away
then piggy keep laughing):
went to the tram
nice ride scary also
the whole effects was scary):
scary but fun(:

anyway happy 20th birthday baby
one year older le muz be more mature kay:D it nice to spend ur birthday wif u(: i enjoy tdy trip alot alot although it scares me alot alot too<3





went sch have DPA theroy and CMN practical
DPA is driving me mad):
last time keep 1010101
now keep ABABABA
wa my brain cells really dying le lah
lucky CMN nice ho ho let us play com
let us do our own things when he finish teaching
so nice right my ho ho(:
watch 10promise to my dog
wif lin,wang ping and dennis
at com
wanted to watch hachiko story but the voice too soft le
cannot watch):
lin say 10promise doggie is cute but i think hachiko doggie cuter
aiya watever lah both also cute
both also i like(:

went home prepare things
bath go out
i tried to go out early but still late
let piggy wait for me although its his birthday):
piggy wear the clothes i bought for him
so touch and piggy looked so handsome in it:D
happy really very happy(:
bought couple rings
the salegirl my finger ''hen duo ruo'' then i was like haix
then baby say see nt only i say
always bully me de him):
but our finger size is the same
so happy:D
went piggy agency take things,eat dinner
then head to nite safari for the Halloween thingy(:

DPA theroy
confusing sia really brain wan crack liao
but in the end i still uds(:
we ask for break finally he gave us 15min toliet break (:

CMN pratical play com did circuit thingy
then slack abit go home(:
eh i forget alot of things liao cause late posting
haix):

meet piggy at CCK
want west mall to eat
then walk around the HDB
piggy promise me three things
so touch(: so happy(:
after tat piggy was late for his lesson
take to commonwealth wif him
change bus he alight after one stop
while i sit all the way home(:

piggy sms me say meet 2pm tmr
then i was like 2pm??
i end class at 1pm
then go home need around 1hour
2pm reach home
then piggy change to later timing
tat nt good when ur sch is so so so far from home):





our sch is on newspaper tdy
but nt a gd thing ar cause we are noisy so cck residents complain
principle say we are still students nid them to be more understanding and give us a chance to change and everything
haix): nt even open for one year ppl complain liao.
y can't they be more mature

tdy lesson early 0800):
reach classroom late
did a while of things teacher ask us pack up go 1523
cause course manager wan talk to us
then went ther listen to him
but the chair in the classroom was like so dann cool lah
cannot pull out de
and will auto pull in de so so so cool(:

after the guy talk finish
SH wan see our class say our attendence nt gd tis nt gd that nt gd
and we are the only class who have parents meeting session haix):
ask mr ho to give us more break
then he say till 1045
then they say okay
then one students say nw 1020 le
1100 then start class then mr ho say why nt 1200
then no bargain 1045 muz reach class

at class cb told me he saw baby at econ
he nev wif other gals
then i was like okay
then he say lucky he nev fool around cause if he do
he will go to him and say him
then tell me
they say they are my spy
hahaha:D
so baby muz watch out ar spy all around the sch le haha(:

dann pek chek wif the stupid lift at block 1 lah
dann it>:(
we press the down button when it is at 6floor
then it come down very slow then nvm we wait
then all of the sudden the dann lift juz went straight down without even stopping
then i was like wth lah
the lift ther like getting more and more ppl
then ppl press up the lift stop
another lift coming up from 1st floor
then also going up
we like a idiot standing ther lah
cause both lift juz went up twice
dann it lah stupid lift
take the staircase instead
waste our time

baby walk past me tat time
i saw him i stunned
but i nev call him or anything
juz keep looking his way then his friend saw me
then i turn away then baby turn over
i sense his glance at me so juz look and smile at him
then pek chek wif the lift so walk staircase
then baby and his friends standing ther
baby hold me and tell me don run
but pek chek liao
don feel like talking to him
then while going down i keep saying
then lin and dennis tell me to relax and everything
but everything okay when i'm at ground floor(:

watch child eye wif lin
abit scary lah(:
nice show i will say.
and my blog getting boring cause all is sch stuff
i guess nt alot ppl read my blog also
so nvm(: i juz write down to see it myself(:

and i got my book tdy
happy happy(:
i book it online
it come in quite fast ar
but i gonna read my library book 1st b4 reading it
then another book is coming out again
i feel like ordering his whole series of book
cause it seems so nice(:
another book is to forget you
it has a paragraph so truth


DPA pratical 1st
did circuit thingy(:
confusing lah):
AND gate,OR gate,NAND gate and NOR gate
but nev did much thing
cause teacher give us answer
but me and lin go try out the circuit
went down for break saw ambulance
becos of curious i, lin and dennis stand around to watch
then dennis say it a malay student
s'care did nth and only last for a few mins
so break for 1and a half hour(:
eat finish went buy bubble tea
then sit at level four ther to drink
then blah blah blah blah
did finish exersise can go home le
3pm can go le but chat wif faz till 3.30pm then go

went causeway wif lin
cause wanted to buy disc for baby:D
cause baby said her like tokio hotel and the concert cd was out
so i was thinking maybe i buy for him treat it as birthday present:D
went back cck to meet baby after buying
give it to him the min i see him
cause i scare i 4got, make up excuse to play wif him
but seeing him so happy make me happy too:D
cause i always rmb baby buying me the gui gui when i say i like
even when we are nt a couple tat time

eat subway wif baby
then go walk around
then on the way i keep trying to poke baby belly button
then he say very uncomfortable when i poke in
then i keep whining then baby whin wif me
then we keep whining then ppl start looking at us
but we don bother them:D
told baby i told him somthing tdy but
i don koe how to say so i say next meet up then i tell him
then i ask him quak for me then i tell him
then he keep quaking
so cute(:
baby quaking sound is only for me to hear hahaha(:

piggy:
i koe you are worry bout things
you worry the two years when you are in army
hearing you sound so worry make me sad too):
you told me alot of ur friends break up wif their gf when they are in army
u worry we wil be like them
tats nth i can say or do to make u nt worry bout these things
cause i koe it a test we both muz face in juz like one more year
i scare too really):
but i will try my very best to maintain tis love we have kay
cause for two ppl to meet each other is nt easy
u koe alot of our things is really fate(:
u believe in fate, i believe it too:D
so if fate bring us tgt
nth gonna break us up kay(:
we still have one year to make our love grow stronger
so no worries(:
kay baby:D i happy to see u so committed to tis love we share

eh no pic put liao
so put tis one up:p
lin don scold me plssss:D
and seriously i look like a kid):

okay anything
had fia at 0830
but i forgot the timing
i tot lesson start at 0800
then rush to take mrt
then lin sms told me tdy start at 0830
then i was like omg y i forgot sia
haix): had PE after FIA
did sit up and pull up
haix i don like don like):
stomach pain and hand pain
haix hw weak i am):

DPA practical did simple things
so it okay(:
i like doing things i koe
happy when i koe how to do things(:
CMN afterwards
ho ho teach lesson ask us do past year paper and everything
release early(: i like ho ho becos...
he always release us early
love him to the max:D

wait for baby at event plaza
then saw three dgs
they walk pass 7-11 then they keep looking my way
thn i was like omg faster go faster go
but i gald they walk fast and baby nev come down fast:D
nev bump into them(:
nt tat i scare to let them saw baby
juz eh don koe leh don wan them to see ba

went bpp wif baby for dinner
the board said 01-28 or something de
then we went downstairs walk two rounds nev saw one subway
then it under renovation
then say move to 02-28 or wat de
go upstairs cannot find a single thing
then settle for mac instead
saw two ite gals
went in sit near them
saw them keep seeing me/baby de
then don koe wat she type at her phone give her frenz see
then her frenz look over
weird ppl around the world
nev see ppl same sch wif them b4 ba(:
don koe don wan bother:)
bpp was small no where to walk de):

went home after walking a while
wanted to spend more times wif baby but really no place to walk):
and he ask me to put my file in his bag
cause i keep carry it around
then when we go or own way
i nev ask him from him
then he went home wif it
notice it at mrt bt too late
see tats the problem when two blur ppl get tgt:p


tdy work was so tiring
nev get to sit down much
cause customer keep coming in and in and in
no time to drink water even):
when ther is nt much ppl
have to wash the bottle for holding soya sauce
then went in front cannot wash
kitchen also cannot use
then mum ask me to wash at the place wher they make their dough de things
i cannot stand down cause they making the dough
so mum ask me squat at the staircase ther to wash
squat half way buay tahan
bend my body over to wash
in the end my back hurts alot):
wash table cloth after tat
but lucky work till 9pm only(:
cause sch tmr



went to baby chalet tdy(:
starting both of us are upset due to some things
but everything went okay a while:D
baby and me wont get effect by things so easily
even if we do we get over it within one night:D

chalet was fun
it was nt as bad as i think it will be
baby's frenz was friendly
eat,take photo,play poker
taught baby how play stress:)
blur baby always like to put K after J
then he always kana stress
haha:D so fun
baby kana cake smash at his face
aw poor thing pimple gonna poke out more again
but no matter wat baby is still as handsome as last time:D

went cinleasure for baby surprise
poor baby kana blindfold whole journey to ther
like kidnapped like tat:p
they make a board saying''today is my 20th birthday''
wif his photo at the top and hang it on him
ask ppl to say happy birthday to him
baby was so cute when his face gone all red when he saw so many ppl around him
tis is my 1st time seeing his face went red due to shyness
so cute:D
they get one stuffy pig for him and letters and one big pot of sweets:D
and a bouquet of roses but the roses somehow ended up wif me(:

play all the way till midnight 1plus
take baby frenz car back to chalet
then help him pack his things thn went home in baby parents car
reach home b4 3
but after i bath and sms baby
sleep around 3.30:D


worst day):
bcos i miss piggy so so so much
maybe bcos we don get to see each other
the only time i got to be wif him
is on Wednesday but it too short
i haven have the time to spend enough time wif him the clock went 10plus
it Friday i miss him so much)':

went sch tdy
friends and work make me nt miss him too much
the journey home i was too tired so i nev miss him so much
but when i watch piranha on funsion
i start to miss him
i wanted to sms him but i koe he busy
and so wat if i sms him
my miss for him wont reduce):
i wish he was ther wif me to watch tgt
maybe becos it been long since i watch funsion movie le ba
used to watching movie wif piggy le

went library to lend books cause books going to date due soon
finding books make my mind occupied
so it okay
went home watch tv
half way piggy called
heard the background behind him
i koe he busy
talk abit
when i koe he going to hang up
i koe after hanging up will get me missing him alot again
so no matter hw tired or how stress i am i turn my focus to my book
so i stop talking to him
cause i koe if i keep talking to him
i will nt bear to put down the phone
so i juz keep quiet
hearing him talk to the phone
make me miss him more worse so i juz hang up the phone

he tot something wrong again
he called and called again and again
u koe how it hurts to see the phone call when u like to pick up once it started to ring
but nw u have to ignored it
he send sms to me
i told him i hav nth to talk to him
maybe i hurt him bt i hurts myself more when i say a lie
i have alot to talk to him
but i don wan to bother him, he busy
i don wan after i hang up the phone again
my misses add on again
so i ignored every call he dialed
every time i see the phone ring and stop
i think of baby disappointed face on the other side
it hurts alot):
but i have to control myself

i focus on my work
i let the tiredness overcome me
let the stress overcome me
so i wont miss baby so much
i send him hurtful words
it hurts alot juz to press the send button
i tot i can control my miss for him
but the more i get close to him
my miss for him increase
but i have to control

tdy 1st theroy lesson of DPA
dann stress cause ther alot of 1010101010100010101010 to rmb ):
CMN afterwards have pratical
draw power supply, oscillator and signal generator
after draw finish played com(:
hate those myanmar ppl
play music play till so lound
nev care bout other ppl
listen till pek chek
cause i cannot hear a single thing coming from my com or mp3
dann it ):


happy 2nd month anniversary piggy(:
i really very sorry bout the card words
i don koe wat i writing also it so messy
it my fault after all
i nev prepare it earlier
last min rush so turn out it get really messy

really thanks for everything
i'm a crybaby
i cry when things got really hurtful for me
tis year tears like to go on and on
like a tap unclosed
when i koe i cause u to hav eye bags and everything
i felt so guilty
so whenever i wanted to cry again
i cry after we hang up the phone
or the day u nev call
cause i don wan my tears to let u have eye bags again(:
i hope u understand my reason from hiding my tears away from u
i don wan lie to u, and i don dare to say it in front of u
so i tell u here piggy(:

i'm a immature gal wif petty temper
i get angry when u called me late
or u nev sms me a single message a day
but i'm a person who don show my anger out
my anger cool down quick also(:

i don koe u will read tis or not
but i juz wan say
thanks for bearing my crying at nite
and my mood change sometimes
my pitch my poke every time we meet
i koe it painful
but i still keep poking
i'm so sorry
but tis is a way of expressing my closeness to u kay(:
i love u for who u are baby
no matter how many holes u have in ur face
i still love u kay(:
don worry too much i accept all ur flaws juz like how u accept mine too:D

tdy did pratical for FIA
quite fun cause lesson was easy
but after a few more lesson it will start to get more and more diffcult
CMN afterwards ho ho started lesson
he use a simple way to teach so can absob easily
tdy early release
so want orchard buy anniversary things
walk alot of place but finally found one at semerset
rush home afterwards







it been three days since i last saw piggy
saw him a while during lunch
a few days without him by my side seem like a week without him
习惯他在我身边了，所以才会有这种感觉):
piggy poh i miss beating ur fatty stomach):
i miss hearing u quak):
i miss poking u and seeing u jump):
i miss the way u say stop it to me when i keep pulling ur clothes/bag/pants ):
i miss the way u make me feel when i'm wif u
i really miss u alot):

1st day of sch tdy
did nth but juz sit in the classroom
FIA listening to ho talk talk bout result
I♥MY CA
cause he was dann cute(:
lin was sitting beside me
we ask him bout the result slip and the time table
but at lunch time he called lin asking y she nt in sch:D
see tats how cute my CA is(:
my term module teacher name is cute too
ho,low,ho,goh(:
two ho,one low and one goh
but i still prefer my MR HO BC(:

tis term
we have 6 book to buy):
and it cost us $28.10
and the books was dann thick lah
and the CMN is full of theroy
theory alot= memory muz be very de gd liao lor):
i feel the stress when it is juz the 1st day of sch):

PE tdy sux):
stupid teacher ask us to run in sch uniform
dann it lah
then my toe hurts so much lah
after running six rounds in the indoor sports hall track):
thn i think the height and weight gt problem lah
tat time measure 161
nw measure 160 only
but i lose weight le(: hapy happy:D

okay i stop my complaining bout sch le
cause tats wat i hav to tahan nw):
i love it when bruno mars songs play in my ipod
when i'm at mrt
he has a smoothing voice
i love it so so so much=)
i juz stand near the mrt door
lean my head ther and juz close my eyes
to listen to his voice and the lyris
it make my tiredness go away
and i love the song''the way you are''
it was so sweet(:
i bet his gf will be so lucky if he sing to her

tdy meet kaya for lunch
but timing nt gum leh
haix): cannot meet regularly also
chat till half way muz go liao):
it been long long time since i last saw him
kinda miss his nonsense):
it juz make me and lin laugh like nobody business:D
kinda miss the time we spend together during NCT
we spend alot if times tgt
we play poker, do things,chat and eat tgt
nw different class liao
no longer can ask him to help us wif project things
no longer can talk/laugh during lesson time liao
i bet if kaya see tis
will say'who call u two don wan transfer to ssi'
but i nev regret staying in ec
cause if i tranfer to ssi
i will nt meet my piggy anymore le):
cause PE wont be at tues
so i gald i'm at ec
meeting my piggy(:

tdy was a tired day
cause work place alot alot of ppl
customer juz keep on coming in and in
becos of ytd incident
their soup was nt very full anymore
fingers hurt less than ytd but still abit
toe hurts alot
cause alot ppl
we nid to be fast
so walk fast then toe was hurting):
cramps start again):
i hate it when cramps come during work days):

but anyway today was a nice date(:
10/10/2010(:
100 years one time
i spent mine at work
i bet others spent it wif their friends ba



bad day tdy
because of my broken nails on my toe
i can't walk very fast cause it still hurts
another thing happen tdy

i scald me hand tdy
i was holding a hot noodles then another person juz bump into me
everything was blur when the hot soup juz fall on my fingers
they took the noodles away from me
they ask me to clean wif clear water
i was a bit blur when i was putting my hand in the soap water
it meant to be the cloth water
but i juz put it in

they apply the medicine on my three fingers
without the medicine it nev hurts so much
but once they apply it
it starts to burn, pain
they told me to sit down and rest till meal time
so i spent half of my day sitting ther seeing them taking dish to ppl
clearing tables but i cannot do anything juz sit ther and watch them
it still hurts abit when i went home
my thumb was abit red):


went Universal Studios wif piggy(:
they spent a bomb on tis
but it worth it
cause it real fun:D
muz go try it, it worth every single cent
some recommendations from me ar:p

firstly the muz try thing is the Revenge of the Mummy
this is a muz try ride
roller coaster in dark
wif backward,fast forward and alot more:D
go ther muz try tis cause it dann fun
but if u don wan pay money for locker then don go on weekend then
the locker charge money for more than 30mins(:

2nd is the Shrek 4-D Adventure
i love the effect
but the starting is kinda boring
but the movie was great
u nev regret going in:D

3rd is the Lights, Camera, Action: Hosted By Steven Spielberg
it so amazing
it make u go "wow" "cool"
others will be the WaterWorld, Canopy Flyer,Enchanted Airways and many more
try it urself kay(:

tips on going ther:
1. muz be ready to spend ur whole day ther cause really alot things to walk:D
2. muz be willing to try all games
3. wear sleeveless clothing cause it dann hot ther
4. bring ur own water ther if u don wan spend money to buy their drinks
5. bring ur sun block lotion or else u be like piggy worry bout getting sun burn
6. check the weather before going cause it will be a great lose if it a raining day
7. finally juz enjoy ther wif ur frenz(:

i tot everything will turn out bad bcos of me
i so sorry piggy):
i koe i made u pek chek again):
i know i promise u i wont be sad again when we go out
but things juz like to run in my head
i so so so so sorry):
but i gald u are understanding okay
ther are things i like to keep it to myself
i don feel like telling anyone
so if u ask for a few times then i keep saying nth
pls stop asking, it will bring me tears kay(:
cause some things i feel better writing out
but i don wan ppl to ask or talk bout it





listening to 品冠-我以為
tears start to drop again
cause somehow i feel the pain in my heart
tis song reminds me of my past
dumbly waiting for some1 i don even koe
for 4 years
silly rite
juz seeing him looking my way my heart start to beat fast
started to go shy
for don koe wat reason
don even think tat maybe he looking at someone else
everyday juz seeing him in sch for once i will feel so happy
my mood change bcos of him
seeing him make me happy
instead nt seeing him make me sad
i tot waiting will see some miracle
bt i was so dumb
i don even koe him
wat fate or miracle will have in us
i rejected guys bcos i tot one day we will be together
when i koe he has a gf
my heart hurt
alot
i tot i was strong tat time
i juz fight against my mind/fact
tat one day we will be together
i was so so so silly
till one day i was hurt all over

silly me i still cry when piggy is wif me
bt i don koe
i always feel the deep wound inside me is hurting again
my disappointment and my silliness are all in ther
somehow i wish piggy was beside me
but the reason for me crying was so stupid
so i tot i juz cry,dried then continue my life again
don wan bother him or anything

i felt so useless and dumb everytime my tears drop
i hate myself for being so weak
cry over small matters
yeah i juz a pathetic crybaby):

i was lucky to have my baibai beside me
he look at me when he see me crying then will juz sit ther and look at me
sometimes when u are crying u juz wish tat ther is someone
sitting beside u juz quietly holding u
nt asking wat happen or wat
juz sit beside u and wait till ur tears are dry






tired but enjoyable day(:
went badminton at woodlands wif lin
play half way raining):
then went her house to play wooden block
don koe wat tat call but very fun(:
after tat went to find piggy(:
it been two days since i last saw him
he told me things

piggy:
do wat u like kay
don do things u don like
it very stressful if u are doing things u don like
the more u don like the things u are doing
the more u will nt do gd in tat
don make urself so stress
i will support watever u choose to do de(:
no worries be happy(: