I really wonder how you feel on these nights so alone

“life will be better in spring”

Friday, October 8, 2010 || 12:26 AM

我以为我的等代最后能给我一个奇迹

listening to 品冠-我以為
tears start to drop again
cause somehow i feel the pain in my heart
tis song reminds me of my past
dumbly waiting for some1 i don even koe
for 4 years
silly rite
juz seeing him looking my way my heart start to beat fast
started to go shy
for don koe wat reason
don even think tat maybe he looking at someone else
everyday juz seeing him in sch for once i will feel so happy
my mood change bcos of him
seeing him make me happy
instead nt seeing him make me sad
i tot waiting will see some miracle
bt i was so dumb
i don even koe him
wat fate or miracle will have in us
i rejected guys bcos i tot one day we will be together
when i koe he has a gf
my heart hurt
alot
i tot i was strong tat time
i juz fight against my mind/fact
tat one day we will be together
i was so so so silly
till one day i was hurt all over

silly me i still cry when piggy is wif me
bt i don koe
i always feel the deep wound inside me is hurting again
my disappointment and my silliness are all in ther
somehow i wish piggy was beside me
but the reason for me crying was so stupid
so i tot i juz cry,dried then continue my life again
don wan bother him or anything

i felt so useless and dumb everytime my tears drop
i hate myself for being so weak
cry over small matters
yeah i juz a pathetic crybaby):

i was lucky to have my baibai beside me
he look at me when he see me crying then will juz sit ther and look at me
sometimes when u are crying u juz wish tat ther is someone
sitting beside u juz quietly holding u
nt asking wat happen or wat
juz sit beside u and wait till ur tears are dry