“life will be better in spring”

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worst day):
bcos i miss piggy so so so much
maybe bcos we don get to see each other
the only time i got to be wif him
is on Wednesday but it too short
i haven have the time to spend enough time wif him the clock went 10plus
it Friday i miss him so much)':

went sch tdy
friends and work make me nt miss him too much
the journey home i was too tired so i nev miss him so much
but when i watch piranha on funsion
i start to miss him
i wanted to sms him but i koe he busy
and so wat if i sms him
my miss for him wont reduce):
i wish he was ther wif me to watch tgt
maybe becos it been long since i watch funsion movie le ba
used to watching movie wif piggy le

went library to lend books cause books going to date due soon
finding books make my mind occupied
so it okay
went home watch tv
half way piggy called
heard the background behind him
i koe he busy
talk abit
when i koe he going to hang up
i koe after hanging up will get me missing him alot again
so no matter hw tired or how stress i am i turn my focus to my book
so i stop talking to him
cause i koe if i keep talking to him
i will nt bear to put down the phone
so i juz keep quiet
hearing him talk to the phone
make me miss him more worse so i juz hang up the phone

he tot something wrong again
he called and called again and again
u koe how it hurts to see the phone call when u like to pick up once it started to ring
but nw u have to ignored it
he send sms to me
i told him i hav nth to talk to him
maybe i hurt him bt i hurts myself more when i say a lie
i have alot to talk to him
but i don wan to bother him, he busy
i don wan after i hang up the phone again
my misses add on again
so i ignored every call he dialed
every time i see the phone ring and stop
i think of baby disappointed face on the other side
it hurts alot):
but i have to control myself

i focus on my work
i let the tiredness overcome me
let the stress overcome me
so i wont miss baby so much
i send him hurtful words
it hurts alot juz to press the send button
i tot i can control my miss for him
but the more i get close to him
my miss for him increase
but i have to control