“life will be better in spring”

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smth happen
make me think of my ah gong all of the sudden
some how when some1 pass away
and knowing how sad the alive ppl feel
i started to feel the sadness
cause i uds hw they feel,hw sad to have some1 close to u just pass away
i feel the same thing juz 2 years ago
i lost my dearest ah gong in the middle of my sec sch

before he pass away
he was going in and out of hospital bcos of his illness
one day when he was about to go home, he fainted
then things get serious he went into icu
i rmb when i went in to see him wif my brother
i saw him full of pipes poking into his hands and stomach
and he seems so skinny and weak
it pains me):

i was nev a gd grandchildren
when i was young i went to his house every sat
but when i get older i started to stay away
becos ther nth to do ther and i nt close wif my cousin
so i hated going ther in fact
i regret nt spending alot of time wif him
i nev talk much wif him cause i don uds hokkien
and he can't speak much Mandarin too

i also rmb when i was young,
he will hold my small hands wif his winkled hand
and the brush in his hands
and write my name wif it
and every sat i went ther
i will sit in his bedroom wif him
to watch zhen qing wif him

he dote on me the most bcos i'm the youngest of all cousins
but i really regret nt spending alot of time wif him
if i could i willing to give him a little time of my life
let him live longer and let me treasure him by my side
let him koe how much i love him

regrets filled my hearts
so whenever i think of him
my tears started to flow
i break down at class tdy
but i cover my face wif my hands
i take mrt to woodlands
then bused home from ther
during the ride home i almost cried
but i control my tears

i want him to see me getting into adult age
i want him to see me getting a job
i want him to meet my boyfriend
i want him to see me wearing the braid grown
i want him to be at ther at my wedding ceremony
i want him to hold my child
but its all gone nw
he pass away without seeing all this happening
i miss him so so so much

god never gave me a good and responsible father
but he gave me a really good ah gong
and i thank him for that
cause being his gran daughter was my greatest blessing from god