I really wonder how you feel on these nights so alone

“life will be better in spring”

Friday, December 31, 2010 || 5:26 PM

last day of 2010(:
everything gonna be brand new
and i gg 1 year older soon^^
but what bad is exam coming, school gonna start soon
things gonna be compress just like what SH and mr ho said
stress is coming):
and baby attachments is coming since its his second year
aw so bad to think the sch gonna be without him):
no more gg elsewhere after school
but anyway gonna say things to friends and loved ones since i'm bored^^

DA FEI ZHU♥(jayden poh)
141days since we are tgt
221days since we koe each other
i always rmb how we 1st meet each other<3
i rmb the day when i saw u and run all the way up the staircase
and i send a message to tell u i'm sorry(:
i rmb the day u ask me to go out with u
and how anxious i got the whole day
and how quiet i am when we are out tgt alone
i rmb those times when i waited for u to chat with me on fb:D
and the days i make sure my phone is fully charge so that i can receive ur call:D
and how much i love when i get ur sms asking me to go out again:D
and how disappointed i get when u avoid me for a period of time):

i rmb the place u held my hand and the way u held it
we walk a long way to find raffles mrt hand in hand during tat day(:
u asked for a gdbye hug i give a little one and say gdbye to each other
i rmb tat weekend, tat sunday
when i'm sick the 1st thing i do is to sms u
u call me in a while and sms sweet little message to me
there are so many little memories that make up our little love(:

and i clearly rmb the day when i tot everything is going to end
it was November 26 and December 6
everything is falling apart
especially December 6th u told me to take care of myself even without u by my side
u hug me and say maybe it is the last time u will be hugging me
u return me the ring and ask me to make my decision
u say u are tired of everything
i cry the worst that day
my whole day was full of tears
whenever my class mention ur name to me
i started crying
i saw u twice at school tat day
i longed for u to come and hug me
and tell me everything is back to normal
i cried when i saw the photos we had tgt was gone
i really tot everything is ending
till the next day u talk to me
and tell me alot of things i gonna change
u hug me and i said to myself i wont let this thing happen again
we continue our little journey tgt again(:

we had two little quarrel
but things went out fine again(:
we went genting tgt
u held my hands whenever we are walking
u held my hands although ther a thing between us(:
u help me to wipe my hair when it is dripping with water
those three days two night is like our little honeymoon<3
our love grow more and more each day
u told me that we stay this way even when we are back
i promise u baby♥ i will
our love will be strong enough to stand those two years
i believe(:

baby♥
thanks for believing in me
thanks for being there for me
thanks for planting kisses on me
thanks for hugging me everytime
thanks for holding my hand whenever we went
thanks for smoothing my hair when i sleeping
thanks for letting me felt so loved and bless
thanks for bringing me colours to my life when i tot tis year will be colourless
thanks for caring for me whenever i am at work
(when u remind me to be careful, i will be cause i don wan to pain u cause u say it hurts to see me in scars)
thanks for being extra gentle to me whenever my period comes
thanks for the laughter u gave me when we are tgt
thanks for making so much memories for me to fill up my life
thanks for making me see that everyday is precious
(cause u are going army in one years time so everyday we spend is very precious to me)
thanks for taking me to so many places i never went b4
thanks for everything u done for me♥
i love u so much my precious baby

|| 5:26 PM

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Thursday, December 23, 2010 || 6:08 PM

ding dang mao♥

i rmb baby telling me
he scare of me saying ''ding dang mao"de
it was funny and i went telling my friends(:
then they will ask me y
i will tell them becos i keep saying it
make baby scare of hearing it:p

but ding dang mao is so cute
round face and big big pigu(:
maybe i have the same thing as him ba
so i love him so much(only baby koe wat is the thing ♥)
and most importantly it is in BLUE:D
ME LOVE BLUE LOTZ LOTZ♥

i don koe y
recently like to eat alot alot
haix later fat again le):
thn kana say by baby again):
he keep saying i'm fat but wont admit when i say him
see how cunning he is
like to act cute and innocent(:
when he already 20years old
haix nid to tahan him so many many years de leh
ku ming ar wo):

Thursday, December 16, 2010 || 11:23 PM

today went sch slack only):
played computer for the whole 3hrs
cause mr ho not around so no lesson
so ppl play dota, cs while me and lin watch shows
catch 破天网 on tudou
the more i see the more i tot
zhou jie min talk so cute <3
good show though(:

meet baby at cck mrt
went library after he eat finish
look at magazine, baby look at photo shoots
i look at ramdon things
i saw those pretty pretty nails
so nice and cute
i wan it on mine too(: <3
but too bad theres no ding dang mao de):

shall try it next year(:
i wan pretty nails
i wan pretty clothes
i wan my pimple to go ASAP
lastly i wan my result to be pretty pretty too(: and
i wan my r/s wif baby to be sweetie sweetie always<3

for the past one week
i keep my temper down down down
then r/s wif baby went well(:
we was like the 1st month again;D
but wif more laughter and more comfortable hanging out with each other
and finally more understanding to each other needs
i gonna keep changing and keep my temper down
so i can last long long long wif baby(:
i so happy now with all the things that is gg(:
but i will be more happy if baby can get enough sleep everyday

Wednesday, December 15, 2010 || 11:00 PM

i cried tdy):
but i control my tears
until i step inside the mrt and one single tear drop from my eyes
maybe u saw it maybe u don't
when we were on our way up the mrt
u asked me whats wrong
i told u nth
sorry i have to lie
but i got my reason for lying

cause when the min i saw u so tired i felt bad
when u were sleeping in bus
i felt i really did wrong
if i have not insist of meeting tdy
u could have went home and rest or do your stuff
i never think of others instead myself
i not tired but i nev think that u r tired
how selfish i am

if i have just went around in bus after seeing the doctor
u will be heading home early
doing ur things earlier and sleep earlier tonite
if i have just think of how tired u are
i will not sms asking u to meet up after ur lesson

i feel so bad when i koe u been doing things till midnight
but i am sleeping soundly
i feel so bad when i ask u out and see u using all ur energy to walk around with me
i feel so helpless when i saw the dark circles around ur eyes getting deeper and deeper
but tats nth i can do to help u
all i can do is send u tons and tons of sms telling u to sleep early
i koe sometimes is becos of study but it just feel bad seeing u so tired
but u always trying to joke with me and everything

if i can i willing to share ur tiredness wif u
or just transfer all tat to me
let me suffer it for u
take it as my punishment for throwing temper at u
and letting u sleep less then 8hours during that day
cause i feel so helpless when i saw u so tired but tats nth i can do
but i gald i hide those tears from u
or else u gonna spend mins wif me asking me not to cry
asking me what happen again
then letting u more and more tired again

Monday, December 6, 2010 || 10:16 PM

everyone wants happiness without any pain
but u can't have a rainbow without a bit of rain

i agree with tis sentence
cause no pain no gain

i koe u are tired of things
but thanks for giving it one last chance
i really never knew i cause u so much stress
when u told me being single is more stress-free
i really tot it was going to end
i not going to say anymore
i sick of saying
u're tired of hearing
i show it though my action
cause action always speak lounder than words